Silence.
Learning to find clarity through nothingness.
I’ve been sitting with myself, silently, to hear more of me and less of who I’m told to be.
The noise from the world can cloud what we think about ourselves; what we want, what we need, what we value.
I’ve been so tuned-in to the influence of society lately. Everywhere we turn, from social media to subway advertisements - are images, messages and subliminal notions of what we, as a collective, should be doing.
Once this is recognized, you can’t help but find it everywhere.
How much of this influence is true within us?
Well… the only way to know is through awareness and silence. Or so, I have found.
I often wonder how many of us walking around have yet to lift the veil.
All it takes is a willingness to step out of the vortex and step inward.
All it takes is one snap of recognition.
This world has been designed to tell us all how to live.
For me, silence has revealed judgement; self judgement. Which is a tightly tied product of years of swallowing influence, digesting it and becoming it. There’s a guilt and a shame I’ve walked around with for not being here or there… for not having certain things or looking certain ways.
We apply pressure on ourselves to follow the yellow brick road without asking questions.
How much of this plan would we have dictated for ourselves without the system?
Silence.
The only way to find out is through silence. Lots of it. Live in it for a while. Turn everything off and sit with yourself. Stay until it’s uncomfortable and then stay a bit longer. Longer. Longer. & Longer.
Ask yourself these questions:
What am I feeling, now?
What makes me feel alive?
What do I value?
What does my most fulfilling day and night feel like?
What pressures do I place on myself and who holds me to these standards?
What have I been told over the years, to do and believe? Are these things true, for me?
Autonomous living. The goal. A self-governed life.
Who is reprimanding us but ourselves?
We are taught to inflict our own punishment for not upholding expectations.
So strip it away. Begin the process.
Because when your life comes to an end, its you and you on your deathbed. And damn won’t it feel good to know you lived how you wanted to live.
Allow yourself permission to be free within your own world.
Let go of judgement by starting small. I started with removing “I SHOULD” from my internal dialogue.
f*ck it.
Just do. Don’t should. Just be.
Cheers friends,
Kelly